Time to loose a lot more weight. I NEED to do this, not only for me, but for my family. I have never been this heavy in my life, I've also never been this stationary. My digestive system is hating me, my hemorrhoids hate me, heart burn is becoming almost a daily thing again, and diahrea is very frequent. I can't believe I was 20 lbs lighter earlier this year, this has to stop... But how?
I think my big problem is my love for food and not for exercise. I love and make amazing food. So maybe the answer is portions portions portions, follow that up with lower fat, fewer calories, and fewer sweets. I love rich food and deserts and I just can't do this anymore, I can't hardly stand to look at myself in the mirror. My whole life growing up I was large and my parents were large, and now they're kicking my butt especially my mom, they're lookig great and running quarter and half marathons... I am so heavy right now that it hurts to exercise. I'm young. I so have to power through this... Do I need a program, surgery? I don't think so. I'm fiddling with weight watchers but not sure $5 a week is going to help me count calories or exercise more. I have to do this above all for myself and overcome the foodie curse. I think I can still enjoy food, good food, just less of it, and more of the healthier veggies and grains, than hearty meats and cheese. I know I can do this, and if I don't do this today I'm just asking for trouble, your health is nothing to play with.
So my goal, I have to loose at least 60 lbs if not 80. Short term: I have till vacation -about 3 weeks- to loose at least 6 lbs and exercise at least 3 days a week. If I can't do that on my own, then we're trying weight watchers.
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